what is that and this?

erk,long time no write but now im a bit lazy to write sumthing for my blog.for now im realise that fasting month maybe make me to be more lazy plus more sleeping than doing some job.no game playing in my head but now there are a gamble game for my life that need sacrifice from myself.maybe i need too but i dont know how to start this because i dont know wht the common game that i play for myself.erk,btw bi aku dah hancur dah ni.dah dah laa. :(

btw,help me okay to continue my journey in my life.matang kah aku?persoalan yg masih tidak terjawab sehingga kini.ada yang berkata dalaman matang tapi luaran sgt kebudak2kan.ada yg berkata "kau ni tak matang lah,mcm budak2!".but aku sendiri tak tau cmne nak huraikan ayt tu even when i keep asking this to one or more of my friend,dia sendiri tak tau cmne nak ckp.just apa yg dia boleh huraikan is kau ni tak matang.tu sahaja laa setakat ni.thank you :)

enjoy;mus